The only thing which could give her any thrill and cure her from a fundamental and chronically recurring ennui was the idea that she was staking her entire existence on a single throw.

唯一能给她带来任何刺激并治愈她从根本的和长期反复出现的厌倦中治愈她的想法是， 她将自己的整个存在押在一次投掷上。