It is a mean thing to have to confess, but there must have been something not unlike jealousy rankling within me.

不得不承认是一件卑鄙的事情， 但我内心一定有某种与嫉妒不同的东西。

I can no longer enter my bedroom. The bedstead seems to thrust out a forbidding hand, the iron safe frowns at me. I want to get away from this continual insult to myself which is rankling within me.

我不能再进入我的卧室。床架似乎伸出了一只冷酷的手，铁制保险箱对着我皱着眉头。我想摆脱这种在我内心激怒的对自己的持续侮辱。