And when it bubbled up inside me, I channeled it the only way I knew how.

当这种可怕的情绪涌上来时，我只能用自己仅有的方式来排解。

Silas has his own success, his family, the books he is going to write in the future (even if they are just the same old ones over again in different words); Silas's interest isn't channelled the way Emma's is.

塞拉斯有他自己的成功，他的家庭，他将来要写的书（即使它们只是用不同的语言重写一遍）； Silas 的兴趣不像 Emma 那样被引导。