It isn't like blacking out; it's more as if the film of memory has been spliced here and there.

感觉不是眼前一黑昏过去了；更像是记忆的电影剪辑，将这段那段凭空接在了一起。

That's the last thing I remember trying to do before blacking out.

这是我记得在昏过去之前尝试做的最后一件事。

So like he would hold my head underwater for long periods of time until almost blacking out.

就像他会让我长时间憋气， 几乎要窒息晕厥才放手。

And then the last thing I remember is collapsing on the floor and just blacking out and thinking this isn't real, this isn't real.

然后我记得的最后一件事就是我倒在地板上，然后晕过去了，我当时还在想这不是真的，这不是真的。

Torres' title, " Blackouts, " refers to the blacking out of pages of Jan Gay's interviews with her queer subjects, pages that are recreated here.

托雷斯的标题“停电”指的是扬·盖伊采访她的酷儿主题的页面被涂黑，这些页面在这里重新创建。

If you've been having gaps in your memory, blacking out often, and finding it hard to keep your train of thought, it might be your mind crying out to you for help, asking you to work through your trauma.

如果你的记忆一直有空白，经常健忘，并且发现很难保持思路，那可能是你的大脑在向你大声求救，请求你克服创伤。

PTSD patients may also experience numbing, or periods of feeling emotionless or emotionally " flat" and dissociation, feeling as if situations aren't real or are surreal, feeling like time has slowed down or sped up, or even blacking out.

PTSD 患者也可能会感到麻木，或感觉无感情或情绪“平淡” 和分离，感觉好像情况不真实或超现实，感觉时间变慢或加速， 甚至昏厥。