I counted up to high numbers, to make sure of myself, and repeated passages that I knew in prose and verse.

我数到很大的数字，以确保自己，并重复我知道的散文和诗歌段落。

And I'm starting to free up a little bit and being a little bit more, actually, you know, more sure of myself.

我开始放松一点，变得更多一点，实际上，你知道，对自己更有信心。

My wife says that it is because I'm not sure of myself and I'm afraid I'm not going to get my way.

我妻子说那是因为我不确定自己， 我害怕我不会如愿以偿。