Well, I have at my disposal variables.

好吧，我有自己的选择。

I can work for my satisfaction with what I have at my disposal, which, to be clear, is a life full of privileges and sometimes pleasures, even if it is difficult to make that clear to myself some days.

我可以用我所拥有的东西为我的满足而努力，说白了，这就是充满特权的生活，有时还有快乐，尽管有些时候很难让自己明白这一点。